The month of love.

February... The month of love... I thought why not celebrate love.... Love can be anything and everything... Mother- son love, Father-daughter love, siblings love, couple love, coffee love, dessert love... Everyone is a lover in some way. The beginning of the year wasn't a great start for me. I was being too emotional, and felt my freedom was taken away. But now thinking about it, I'm actually a freedom lover. New places, new environment kinda brings out the excitement in me. When you begin to discover what you love, life becomes more exciting. When I was upset, all I did was going through my sweet and loved moments. It was a reminder that I'm not a weak person. All we gotta do is find love in every small things that we see or do. It can be a cup of hot vanilla latte, or a picture, or being around the people you love. But we have to understand when we are too caught up with our issues, we won't have the time to think about that love. But somehow we have to think about it, so that we won't lose ourselves to those issues and become weak. My love for travelling has helped me rediscover myself once again. My love for him has helped me realise that love can be tough but beautiful. My love for writing has helped me express my thoughts and feelings. My love for music and arts has helped me calm myself down. My love for coffee has helped me think straight during tough times. My love for my family has helped me achieve the hardest things in life. My love for God and my guru has helped me love myself and others. Love can change a person. Love can change negative thoughts into positive ones. Love makes you a better person. Tough times and issues can't be avoided, but love will be there to give a hand. Now, I'm in love with this very moment where I'm sitting in a classic Indonesian coffee shop and expressing myself through my blog. Embrace every moment of love, and let's welcome the month of love :)

Have an awesome week ahead dear readers :)

The deep dark hole, known as Depression

What can be more torturous that being bugged by your inner voice? It will call you names, it will start destroying your self-esteem. It takes time to realise that depression is a battle. You can win that battle, but that battle can happen again and again. When it happens again, you know exactly what's wrong with you but you are just too tired to fight again. In other people's eyes, they would see us as rude people, arrogant, and good for nothing. Unfortunately, only we know the truth. How much we are suffering and fighting with our own emotions. Slowly, we start distancing ourselves from everyone, we rather be alone in our own space, we feel tired and weak. Also, we lose interest in everything, eating, sleeping becomes a compulsory task. Not that we don't try to distract ourselves, we are just tired to fight it. We try to share with others, but not everyone would understand depression. Sometimes all we want is to go far away. The inner voice would say that 'you are just a burden, no one wants you around'. That's the time you would start believing that inner voice, and you will start seeing yourself as a burden. It is really hurtful when the people around you are happy, and you are just wearing a smiling mask and lying to them that 'yes, I'm happy too'. It's always easy to express yourself through writing than sitting and explaining what's wrong with you. Writing, reading, listening to music, and praying somehow helps to calm you down. Day by day, you will learn that there's no point of expecting others to understand this battle and how you are fighting with it. People are more concerned about other important things and busy with their daily routine. As a depression fighter, you shouldn't be afraid or ashamed to face it again. No matter what, you have to face it by yourself and fight it all over again.

A depression fighter don't need sympathy, all he/she needs is love and care.


Have a good week ahead readers :)