What can be more torturous that being bugged by your inner voice? It will call you names, it will start destroying your self-esteem. It takes time to realise that depression is a battle. You can win that battle, but that battle can happen again and again. When it happens again, you know exactly what's wrong with you but you are just too tired to fight again. In other people's eyes, they would see us as rude people, arrogant, and good for nothing. Unfortunately, only we know the truth. How much we are suffering and fighting with our own emotions. Slowly, we start distancing ourselves from everyone, we rather be alone in our own space, we feel tired and weak. Also, we lose interest in everything, eating, sleeping becomes a compulsory task. Not that we don't try to distract ourselves, we are just tired to fight it. We try to share with others, but not everyone would understand depression. Sometimes all we want is to go far away. The inner voice would say that 'you are just a burden, no one wants you around'. That's the time you would start believing that inner voice, and you will start seeing yourself as a burden. It is really hurtful when the people around you are happy, and you are just wearing a smiling mask and lying to them that 'yes, I'm happy too'. It's always easy to express yourself through writing than sitting and explaining what's wrong with you. Writing, reading, listening to music, and praying somehow helps to calm you down. Day by day, you will learn that there's no point of expecting others to understand this battle and how you are fighting with it. People are more concerned about other important things and busy with their daily routine. As a depression fighter, you shouldn't be afraid or ashamed to face it again. No matter what, you have to face it by yourself and fight it all over again.
A depression fighter don't need sympathy, all he/she needs is love and care.
Have a good week ahead readers :)
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