Summary of my 2015.

2015... A life-changing year for me. I chose to change myself. I chose to express my thoughts and feelings through stories.I discovered the 'real' me. I have a mind that works non-stop everyday. Yes, even in my sleep. I tend to over think because of that. But through such thinking, I discovered many things about myself. I realized that I can achieve and handle life on my own. I saw how strong I can be. I became attached to myself. Melbourne was an amazing teacher for me. I learnt to survive on my own without depending on anyone. I enjoyed my freedom and turned my loneliness into something positive. Now I'm back to Malaysia, and I'm feeling empty. I felt happier when I was alone. But now I have to answer everyone, consider everyone's opinion. I'm afraid that I will lose my stand and the decision-making rights. The only thought that constantly runs in my head is 'there goes my freedom'. No more 'me' time. No more sitting in cafes, having coffee and reading my book. But again, I shouldn't let those thoughts conquer my mind. So, after New Year, I'm gonna find ways to have a life which I had back in Melbourne this year. I'm never a person who will have new year resolutions. If I wanna achieve something, I will somehow achieve it. Thus, this new year, I would like to begin my life journey in a different place. I gotta face the reality. I'm no longer a student with a fun part-time job.  Now, I'm woman with good education background and who wants to build a strong career path. It's gonna be a rough and tough journey. I've gone through a lot without much support. This is just another phase of my life. For time being, I can only have my space by sleeping, exercising, and driving. And, I have to be strong enough and not give up!

Think back about this year, keep the good memories and lessons with you, throw away the negative ones. Start a fresh year by not repeating the things that will only end up hurting yourself. Always appreciate the ones who love you and put more effort in maintaining a good relationship. These days appreciation and efforts are hard to find in any relationship. Don't let go the one who was really there for you all the time. Because I learnt that people can be  nice to you when they need something. It is rare to see someone who sticks around without expecting anything in-return. So, if you have anyone like that, keep them close.

Keep loving, sharing and giving. Also, the most important one... Always listen! Listening means a lot. Even if you can't help much, just listen. I kept a lot in me because I had no one to listen to me. So, now I have become a listener. Be one and help those who need it.

Have a beautiful and blessed year ahead :) May 2016 be a better year!